Help me understand

I am always in the middle of all your conflicts between you and your brother, sister, dad, and any one else, but no one allows themselves to be in the middle of my conflicts you, your brother/sister/dad, etc. Is this selfish? Talk to each other, truly listen to what the other one has to say, put yourself in their shoes. Don't always expect the worst of someone. Understand that you needs are not always the most important in a situation, other people have "lives" and responsibilities to take care of and they are not always at your beckon call. TALK -TALK LISTEN - LISTEN. Is this so much to ask of one another. You are suppose to love and care for one another, try putting the other persons feelings first for once. Do I sound anger, more upset and disappointed. I thought I raised and married more compassionate people. I have failed as a mom and wife. I just want to run away, perhaps if I do then you will be forced to talk to each other. I will be very unavailable for a while, I need to escape. I will be inside my self for a while, this is something I really need to do, perhaps when I return you will be able to cling to each other instead of attacking each other. I love you and I always will and that is the reason I have to do this. Something has to change or I will have to leave permanently.